Celebrated Roy's ORD @ double O. My first time clubbing and I think its pretty fun! though its definitely not a place to go frequently..coze its just too expensive! The endless boomz & boomz & dance~ made it the craziest friday night i've ever had xD (I think i kinda went crazy tt night) Had 3 shots of Tequila, 1 glass of (i don't know what it was) beer and the few jugs of (yet another i don't know what it was) drinks that we shared. BUT, it wasnt that bad, i was still sober in the end when the club closed down, watching people drunk, puking outside e club. Brian & Louis were totally gone by then, had to send them home by cab while the rest to Macs for 'supper/breakfast' before heading home. Then, for the first time i realised that the last NR3 departs Clarke Quay @ 4.30. wtf. But its bcoze of that i learned to bargain a taxi ride from Darian xD cab fare home was only (20/2=10) $10!! :P

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|2009-12-12|11:20 p.m.|

EX. FIRESTORM.
Kinda rained the entire day today, got owned terribly by the hordes of mosquitoes :( Proned at the fire point for 1+hours just waiting for BLACK, and we were actually proning already before the rain came, were proning during the rain, STILL proning even after the sun came out.. The firing sequence was pretty screwed up, because the first charge didnt go off as expected..and party because we were ILL-EQUIPPED! MINI-SHRIKES! =/

PC's ORD-ing next week. Another 2LT is gonna take my PLT till BEAR, and all of us forsee the PLT to screw BEAR up REALLY, REALLY badly. =/ I guess its just up to the 4 SCs to do something about it. SCs' job is becoming harder and more stressful now. My section seems to be not performing as before, and it worries me now that we'll screw up GEMINI and CUB 2weeks badly. I guess kianmeng and I need to seriously do something about it before it becomes too late.. Now, we still have to go study and be familiar with all the section drills that's gonna be executed during and after those 2 EX. .. ALAMAK! STRESS LAH!

3SG in 30 SCE - HARD SIA.

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|2009-12-05|12:47 a.m.|

back from yet another 1-night fieldcamp, and life this week is.., terrible. :(

[Said goodbye to 8 to 5s] it feels terrible to have experience it and going back to [monday to fridays] [8 to 5s] are just too shiok, u don't even feel like u're serving NS. =| Going back to camp for fieldcamp the day after didnt help either. Overnight minefield, the though of it is scary enough. But, amazingly, we managed to finish in ~5hours and stop work @ ~12.30am after e stores etc. Though i stepped into a knee deep hole in my sector.. -_- The night at the training grounds was another hit. Soaked boots, freezing winds, mozzy company. However, all these are just what we have become used to, after so many months here. Back to camp, got kaobei-ed for nothing. Maybe they were just joking, but not to me. :( Thats life. Going to haunt me all the way till i ORD. Today, i woke up with a fucking stiff neck, jeopardising my entire day. And im so fed up enduring all this pain.

This entire week just feels so shitty and lonely. I dont seem to have that many friends to go out with, as compared to the past. (not like i have many in the past. BUT...) I don't even know what they are doing now. This is just so saddening. IM JUST FEELING FUCKING DOWN.

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|2009-11-21|11:10 p.m.|

finally got my own fishing rod! :) but fucking failed at fishing with the new rod yesterday. NO FISH!!! -_-' when junbo actually caught 2...with his first 1 caught when i was still occupied with setting up the rod by the side. argh! i really hope i will get some fish on my next trip. haix! =|

and 范范 is so pretty in this MV!! <3

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|2009-11-01|6:16 p.m.|

3day fieldcamp @ TP11. Did beach obstacle on tuesday; triple-con and tanglefoot in knee-deep water @ the beach during low tide. it was actually pretty fun other than having our boots and socks soaked becoze of that. =| after all that training, some of the specs, including me when to the beach and started catching small crabs with our SOGs haha. i cant deny the fact that we were behaving like little children, flipping the rocks trying to catch 'big' crabs. in the end, the largest one that we caught was perhaps 1/2 the size of our fists rofl. went back to camp on the 1st day of the fieldcamp coze i was tasked to go to the detention barracks to collect release on the next day. at DB, i met yicheng and got to know that he's ORD-ing next month and he was going around doing his ORD clearance!!! -_-' after that, i went over to 3rd div canteen for lunch + dessert. the dessert, called 'special' was pure delight! its just everything mixed together, more of a chepalang dessert; mango pudding, ice, condensed milk, coconut milk, jelly beads, soursop etc. i'll definitely go there more often next time xD

For the past 3 weeks or so in ALPHA, every week seemed to pass as thought it were much longer than 7 days. Perhaps its just me who cant remember clearly what happened on monday/tuesday after the entire week. I guess being posted here isn't that bad a thing anymore. I've got to know many nice 'colleagues' (though we have very weird ones too), i've got rather obedient and self-motivating men under me and the past 3 weeks didnt felt that shit as compared to trainee. YETTT again.., maybe im just numb to all these crap army has to offer, after 10MONTHS in army since december'09! Im finally near the half way mark to ORD! rofl! xD

*keep holding on...*

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|2009-10-25|5:52 p.m.|

a long 6 1/2 days in camp. field initiation. hasty deployment. manually-launched STB. wet gap. mess initiation. 3 tigers. 1 cup of 'specialist brew', 7 diff color liquors mixed together. sweat, shag, wet stinky LBV & no.4 & boots, terrible headache and im finally a spec in 30.

wearing the 3SG rank doesnt only reflect a rise in my pay (though i love it xD), but also the added responsibilities im entrusted when handling my pioneers. just like what the senior specs/warrants always say 'welfare to the man means to train them hard and make sure they can tahan and survive whatever hard ordeals they may face in the future' what we teach and enforce now may actually one day save their lives :O live-mine arming practical - i realised how blur they can be when handling the dummy mine (eg. putting the mine on the floor with pressure plate facing downwards) and it becomes my duty now to make sure they will not do stupid things during the actually LIVE arming.
many many more things have yet to come i guess =| though it feels pretty song to have pple to greet u even when u wake up at 5 in the morning, brushing your teeth in the toilet. xD

just finished my 1st COS duty on sat. the 'shagness' can actually be compared to doing guard duty, minus the sweating part. and now im so scared i will kena another 1 on one of the chinese new year dates. sigh! :(

i dreamt of her yesterday nite, and in that dream she asked me out on the 20th. and i was actually happy for a moment until i realised it was all but a dream. stupid me..

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|2009-10-05|5:27 p.m.|

class gathering at maf this year was awkward. it didnt felt like a class gathering at all =/ there's still the barrier btwn us that makes us not feel like a class. haix. nevertheless, we still saw ms ho, mrs tan, mr nah. and we actually left at 8+ for dinner at new york new york @ coronation, totally missed the grand light-up etc. still, u can see the shocked faces and reactions of so many, staring at the developed part of coronation in disbelief :O here comes the epic part. after dinner with the class, basil & i met up with ben phua, kiantat and left for paradiz. arcade-ed till 12am, waiting for junxian to join us. then from 12am till 7.15am, we LAN-ed for the epic 7 hours 15mins. its definitely the longest session i've been for, starting at midnite and coming out of paradiz to realise that its morning alr xD its nice to see the town 'empty empty' in the morning and all the emptiness talk and photography attempts of that morning haha. everyone was just drained and made blur by the epic seven. perhaps we should try it again some other day...

3weeks into the 30 SCE induction programme. 1 more to go..before i find myself in alpha COY, struggling all the way till i ORD. NO BREAKS. the majority will have ~3months break bcoze of their company's schedule. and here i am, 1 of the very unlucky 4, landed in alpha, where training starts the day we step in, and ends after crescendo, which is probably end of november next year. suck thumb lah! [-_-]

and im soooooooo bored nowwwwww. still have to book in later. LIFE SUCKS... :(
fuck it.

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|2009-09-21|1:45 p.m.|

went for 4D class gathering as plaza sing, only 8 turned up! rofl! we watched Year One, turned out to be a retarded show with no meaning, freaky random plot. and it was so malu for us to take a picture outside the cinema with the movie posters! besides we were all guys -.-

after e movie, went for CESC platoon gathering at zhijie's place. ate alot at the BBQ although i didnt contribute to the cooking of the food at all xD we had our 'chefs', mingjie and benny 24/7 at the bbq pit, cooking all the food for us, hehe =X as we played guitar hero in the living room. it was fun though i pretty much sucked at it, but as a first-timer, still okay lah! xD we had a ghost-story telling session, sharing our own personal experiences/encounters so far in army. of coze, wei kang, the most senior among us, got the most to tell lah. we also tried hotel626 in zhijie room, without the lights, though i didnt really dare to look at the monitor screen most of e times. lol. of coze, not forgetting to camwhore there xD before people started to make their way home. and initially i thought i could catch the last train home...but still ended up sharing cab with bernard. hah!

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|2009-08-30|3:20 a.m.|

i always love long rides on the road. thats the reason why i prefer taking bus to mrt...

29th august 2009, a group of us are posted to and supposed to report to 30 SCE. we reported to ETI, and were supposed to take transport[bus] there to 30. but we ended up taking 5-tonners then.

i can still recall vividly, the moment we left ETI in the tonners loaded with our barang barang. when we looked back from the end of the tonner, at our instructors and frens(posted as instructors) whom we have spent the last 14weeks together, we took our last glance at the ETI buildings and parade square, waving to them as the tonner drove out of the vehicle park. it was an emotional moment, thinking that we are going to leave ETI for good, probably never coming back here ever again, and maybe never seeing them, again. them, whom we have spent 14weeks together, helping one another, motivating on another countless times back in those tough days of our course, eventually completing the course and passing out as 3SGs, together. we've grown so accustomed to having everyone around. we're proud of ourselves, having gone thru all those **** as a FE trainee, we passed out as 3SGs at PLC with pride. back in the tonner, though we were happy to finish the course and finally moving on to life as a 3SG, i can sense the overwhelming sadness in us. honestly, it was a sad ride from ETI to 30 SCE. when i recall of days back in CESC, the awesome frens i made there and the reality that i am leavin all those behind as i leave NSC, i couldnt help but feel the tears in my eyes. though none of us cried, i can see that all of us had the same sense of helplessness in us, on that long ride to 30 SCE. whatever the future holds, i'll just hope that everyone would have a smooth journey ahead =]

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|2009-08-29|10:52 p.m.|

ITS TIME TO WAKE UP AND STOP WASTING OUR TWO BLOODY YEARS STUCK IN ARMY, GONNA START DOING SOMETHING ABOUT IT. HELL YEA.

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|2009-08-23|9:58 p.m.|

ole! BMTC -> BSLC -> CESC. it's been close to 9months, a long journey here and it's gonna be another finale, the REAL final finale that marks the end of our TRAINEE lives. YEAH!

the ~4months CESC has been yet another memorable one, packed will fun people, hilarious moments and really SSHHAAGG times together. another 1 or 2 weeks, we'll be posted out as 3SG to 30 SCE, HQ SCE, ETI and the various SIRs and i'll miss having u guys around =]

anyway. ex transformers just ended yest. thank god. i only had ~6 hours of sleep thru out the 3D2N. ~2hours in the shellscrape, ~2hours in the autumn-liked leaf litter and ~2hours in the 5-ton itself. we got fucked, we saw armour driving thru in the dark (never knew they were SOOOO BIGGG till i really saw it infront of me) and the gayshit sandstorms they create while doing so and we finally got to see the MCV in action. we were so shag we could sleep almost anywhere in any position lol and that was what that made it all memorable! it was reel-ly reel-ly SHAG and tiring, but we'll just glad we've all made it thru together. with the worst over, we'll just have to wait for POP! haha ^^

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|2009-08-15|3:07 p.m.|

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|2009-08-07|7:06 p.m.|

sex on the beach!

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|2009-08-01|3:10 p.m.|

IGNITED! [BOOOOOOOOOOOOM!]

ex. musang II was totally CLASSIC and... [orgasmic]~ xD live-demolition is just too cool and undoubtedly, the most fun-loving thing u can get being a combat E. The sound of e explosions was awesome, coupled with the after effect (sand particles dropping on the leaves above, creating the 'sha sha' or 'gu lut gu lut' sound) of e blast. splendid. =]

basically i wasnt wasting time during the time frame after preparation of charges and before the firing commence. i was so pre-occupied worrying about the red ants around me, forcing me to retreat as i watch a FOC red ants documentary LIVE in front of me. watching the red army conquering every little insect as they move closer and closer to me -_-' fortunately, no humans were harmed during the film o_o

the highlight of the day was the incredible 5-tonner ride my section took when going back to clear debris at e demo. site. i was literally off-ground/flying at many parts of the ride. being thrown up down left right center as the driver speed thru the rocky roads, accelerating like some F1 mobile. and that was the day i've decided to always keep my seatbelt on for any tonner rides in e future, especially the ones when the commands arent around xD e entire section was so high and all of us were shouting away as if we're on some roller coaster ride rofl. and thanks to that ride, my back seems to have gotten worse =/

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|2009-07-31|7:24 p.m.|

wow, it has alr been 1 month since i last blogged. anyways i've alr gotten over all those unhappy things =] for the past month, i've actually done quite a number of things that i had nvr done b4. went to Dempsey hill for the first time [<3 that Ben & Jerrys outlet], nearly got chased by dogs during guard duty @4am..[though 2 others got the real deal xD], further injuring my back from doing pull up [classic!], im nineteen! [yay!] and i think i've never spend so much money on any month other than this particular 1. i got my new wallet, shirt, slippers [new urbanmale -50% hehe]

this month, i booked out 4 times for medical appointments xD happily skipping training sessions. it feels really good when u're out of camp on a weekday morning, sitting just outside velocity @ novena, eating sandwiches, drinking your cup of iced mango yogurt, watching people walk to work. somehow, at tt moment, i felt so good and free. yeah. haha. i'll miss those days..COZE I HAVE NO MORE APPOINTMENTS TILL THE COURSE ENDS! i wonder whether that is a good or bad thing =/

next, i learned fishing and had my first catch on my virgin attempt! wahahaha! ^^! went fishing with junbo and henry at e reservoir between yio chu kang and khatib, just opp. TP7 on this saturday. both henry and junbo came prepared with fishing rods while i just joined in for the fun of it. anyway, junbo passed me a fishing line with a hook and told me to just TRY to get something in case im too bored. and so..with that 2-3m line and hook, i caught my first fish on the first attempt! hilarious! and i got the first catch for the day~ *laughs*

uh oh! tummyache! =|

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|2009-07-26|12:43 p.m.|

1.i've completed my basic training and im staying back at Spec. Training Wing(STW), JUST as i expected. ha.ha. we just gotta <3 field.

2.i did my 2nd guard duty on wednesday and i saw this 正 2SG booking in on thursday morning. there are still good-looking girls in army! hah :] though we still hate doing guard duties! rawr!

3.had 2 stayouts this week, though i was DEPRIVED of 1 coze of my stupid guard duty. and i still watched my course mates book out on wednesday nite when i was in the guard house drawing arms for guard mounting. bleh.

4.ETI cohesion day yesterday, got the chance to bowl for free lol. but it was so god damn rush for me coze i had to collect my grad. cert and go for my appointment at 5.30pm, when i left chevrons at ~3pm.

5.ETI 4th anniversary celebrations today! my first trip to wild wild wet :] managed to challenge/make myself play all the stuff (slides etc.) they have there though it was only 5 'stuffs' haha.

6.went shopping with yh and cc at tampines, marina square, suntec and bugis after leaving downtown east. (actually tts quite alot of places to go in tt little bit of time sia) bought a pair of berms yay :] oh ya! saw a girl today that really got my attention. meltz!~ <3 haha

7.[okay i need to vent it all out now] most significant one - i may need to go an operation soon. that seriously had fucking lots of implications zzzz. my mum's creating such a big fuss about it and i cant stand talking to her anymore. everytime she talks/nags at me, she will make it sound like im gonna DIEEE if i don't do this/that. and that fucking pisses me off. tak boleh tahan. cant she just talk to me without mentioning it everytime? i think shes just not doing the right thing at the right time. AND i dont need any fucking tom, dick or harry to know about my condition even b4 it was confirmed. i dont care even if its my aunt/my mum's fren. fuck it man. must the whole fucking world know it? when wadeva i said was just 'i had smth in my chest and the doctor in camp has scheduled a specialist appointment at the hospital 2 weeks from now.' i broke the news to her on thursday morning b4 going for the cohesion day, and she scheduled an appointment at the GP later in the evening. well i could understand tt she's anxious about it, so i tried my best to rush for the appointment. BUT. when i finally reached home after that appointment, the 1st phone call that came (less than 10min after i reached home) was from my aunt asking about my condition alr. i was really like 'wad the heck?' and i felt really dulan on the spot. i think shes really over-doing it. and i HATE it. im already feeling so fucked up and she MUST MUST MUST add on to it.

fuck my life

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|2009-06-20|12:45 a.m.|

We do the work
U cannot do without
We do the work
U cannot but be proud
Sooooo combat engineers of the SAF
blah blah blah blah blah~

OKAY. 3weeks have passed since the start of the Basic Training Course in Engineer Training Institute (ETI), 1 more week and i'll move on to the specialisation part. Thats also when it'll be confirmed, plus chop which engineer specialisation i would be in, for the rest of my life -_-' though sources have more or less confirmed that i would be in Field, which i think would be really xiong compared to AE and EP... bloody hell. now i've got no choice but to accept it, pray hard and go suck my own thumb hah. My remaining 2 years would just be spent with doing wired obstacles, minefields/clusters and demolitions. I'll prob get complementary hardcore tanning on my hands and face xD anyway, 1 thing tts great about engineers is that u get to make and see things get blown up during live-firing sessions. THEN...will u get to know the power of that little bit of demolition material, especially the stupid small and innocent-looking detonator!

I'm a field engineer, just chiong-ing down the line...

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|2009-06-13|12:28 p.m.|

POP lo~! again! xD its actually nothing much, other than the 1week block leave! yay! a break from all e crap there... out of sispec, getting posted to engineers. and im kinda disappointed cuz i had always though engineer to be quite a xiong vocation =/ but then, i'll still have to see and experience myself b4 knowing it..well! just hope for the better la! :] okay, back to POP. the so-called 28km was actually ~30km, even the commanders admit during the presentation. couldnt they just put 30km there. -_- and all the waterpoints were not 4km apart lor, all of us who experienced it know it. bloody hell. it was a walk where almost everyone was so fucking fustrated coze of the unexpected long journey. none of us expected it to be so tough..until we were down there. for me, i was really on the verge to giving up. bloody angry and shag thru maybe the later half of the journey. my company holland-ed 2 times (walked the wrong path) and had to backtrack to where eva it was la, meaning tt we had to walk extra, which really contributed to pissing all of us off. and when the appointment holders told us to move faster/stay compact, i really felt damn irritated =/ though i know tt i should not feel tt way but i just couldnt help it lol. i was cursing and swearing all the way =X well, its over and done with now. ->relieved!

POP was almost right after the route march, everyone was so shag tt we cant even stand/walk properly. let alone the drill during the parade, it was really half-fucked to the max haha. i couldnt even stand still, coze my legs were aching so badly from the march. i guess the commanders understand tt, so they didnt bother about tt xD

okay, back to after grandslam and before POP..we had Urban Ops and urban ops was fun, thanks to sergeant alex :) the 'gas chamber' was pretty bad, i could smell the gas within the 1st few seconds tt i got into the room. it was so uncomfortable tt i had difficulty breathing properly but i tahan-ed thru. stupid noob gas mask. -_-' but overall it was really a good experience! got to experience first hand how the chemicals really affect our human bodies, rendering us so helpless during the attacks. our eyes and nose really 爆 diao when we had to took the mask off at the last part. terrible sia. tears and mucus just flow uncontrollably, with the pain of needles poking your eyes. sounds scary rite? but its just for a while la. after tt u'll feel happy tt u tried lol.

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|2009-05-16|8:48 a.m.|

GrandSIAN week. grandslam was totally fuck-ed up. rained every single day of the 3D2N outfield, making us wet, dirty and stinky all the way. it was just a bad bad experience. lazy to elaborate. -_-

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|2009-05-01|6:40 p.m.|

hurray! 1 week down and 1+ more to go! field camp @ CCK was quite memorable, considering the very drama last night we had there. so, it started with MATADOR and M203 live-firing on monday before we went over to CCK. live-firing wasnt really fantastic but the white-star illum was cute lol. after u fire, its like a very bright light bulb with a parachute slowly falling to the ground. and yes, we could see HDBs from our campsite but its still a considerable distance from us. basically, we just did contacting drills during the 3D2N fieldcamp, plus 1-2hrs of platoon harbouring on the last day. actually, its the heat during the day tt made training so tough. bloody weather. anyway, the good thing is that we had fresh rations transported from camp for every meal :] and we could return back to COYline on thursday to sleep b4 embarking on Ex. Wanderer :D for tt was really a bonus to us hehe. we were so worried tt we had to slp outfield and go for the ex. from there.

well, wanderer was pretty similar to gypsy 2. same place. just different checkpoints and SAME ones if u are that lucky... but for me, it was all different lol. fortunately, we were able to find 1 out of 2 for the day, and 1/1 for the nite. we had a pretty easy checkpoint for the nite, just tt it was at the extreme end, took us so so so long to get there and back to the endpoint. but at least we got to go back to COYline earlier than some others. ( those who couldnt find their nite checkpoint had to stay and continue searching till the ex. was cut at duno wad time. 10+? 11? =| ) and 1 thing is tt i think i saw smth, dash past infront of me during 1 part of the night navigation. it sure scared the freak out of me for the moment but no choice right..i just wanted to get to the endpoint asap. maybe it was just my imagination but idk.. =/ but im just glad tt all those are over. and done with. :]

left with grandslam ( or maybe grandslack xD coze im already assessed during fieldcamp! woooo~ ) and urban ops e week after!

感情就像候车月台
有人走有人来
我的心是一个站牌
写着等待...

lastly, HANNSOME SUITSI (handsome suit) is really nice! i think its the best movie i've watched this year. the movie is hilarious, guarantee to make u laugh. well, it really made my day :]

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|2009-04-26|1:36 p.m.|

haven been blogging for so long... =| since i've sometime now. why not?

hmm..after passing out from BMT N COY in march, had block leave for 1+weeks till School of Infantry SPECialists (SISPEC). i wasnt really tt disappointed to not get into OCS, since i alr know im not up for e challenge there, now just physically but probably mentally too hah. i guess sispec isnt tt bad anyway, 3 stripes, higher pay compared to being a MAN rite? :) but most importantly, life here is so damn slack tt i always wonder why life was so tough back in N COY -_- why the need?! and yesterday, yinghao just reminded me of the fact tt im in danger of OOC-ing (out of course) bcoze i haven passed my IPPT since i got here. SBJ is really hell for me :( it separates me from my current FAIL to SILVER. and now, i dun have much confidence to pass it by the end of BSLC. oh man! i dun wanna recourse!!! 4 more weeks and im not really confident to make tt miracle happen =/ its 2+ weeks of outfield training ahead...hell no time to train -_- 5D4N fieldcamp with ex. WANDERER, 3D2N grandslam @ tekong, 2D1N of urban ops would prob kill me b4 i realise tt theres no time left to train. well...i can only pray for the better =/

anyway i just wanted to record my extra-ordinary RT today. we (my bunk) woke up at 5+ for breakfast as usual, came back and sleep as usual, waiting for the stupid RT to start at 7+. apparently 3 of us just K.O. and no1 woke us up. by the time i woke up at 7.30...i realised the rest of the company RT-ees are already formed up at chevron square xD and so the 3 of us continued sleeping till 9+ when the rest returned and we just hun4 inside and went to shower and book out! miraculously we managed to get away with it, which is so unbelievable xD fateful free-thrill. haha :D

oh i saw fireflies at lower mandai! during exercise GYPSY 2. who says sg dun have fireflies =!

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|2009-04-18|11:31 p.m.|

With Pride We Lead! Sispec!

Just wan to quote wad my new PC always say 'Life is always full of surprises, excitement, disappointment and ....(woo fuck i cant remb the last 1 -.- nvm, i'll edit this next week =/)

ps. the last 1 is shock.

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|2009-04-12|12:08 p.m.|

~3 weeks to POP! Cant wait for tt fateful day when i can finally leave NINJA COY, after all the crap i've been enduring these ~9 weeks. Though all that has already tone down coze all the high key events have already ended. we're all left with just SOC and IPPT. SOC's a nightmare for me coze i cant do swing trainer at all... -_- for god knows wad reason. bleh. now my goal to be able to do all the stations in SOC by POP is gone... :( well, at least im working hard towards my IPPT silver...after realising tt i can never jump to get gold unless some miracle happens..LoL. =|

thanks to NS, i dun feel any impact of e festive occasions. valentines yesterday felt like any other ordinary bookout day. haha. at least it wasnt exactly a lonely valentines this year xD had dinner with e study group at some place called 'Japanese Food Street' or smth at heeren. pretty nice place with good food at rather fair prices. it was a pity huanzi couldnt join us =/ cuz the dessert was really fantastic =P mango slush ice with jelly <3 next time i'll top it up with a mango icecream! <3 <3 <3 <3

anyway. time really flies during the weekends and really CRAWLS in camp. a few hours more and i've to return for another grueling week in tekong. its a fucking reality. lol. just like wad OC always say xD

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|2009-02-15|1:05 p.m.|

chinese new year eve! quite a day for me, though i woke up really late cuz i slept at 5am in e morning =/ and im still awake at 7am now, first day of CNY.

was supposed to meet junbo, yinghao and huanzi for movie in e afternoon b4 reunion dinner. soo sorry for pangseh-ing cuz i was feeling feverish after lunch and fell asleep in e living room after lunch -_- didnt expect the 3 of them to pay a visit to my house though. thanks for the thai guava and chrysanthemum tea :) and e others who send me 'get well' messages. really 感动到我

after that, went for the usual dinner at grandma's place. piang. too tired to continue. i need rest. zZzZzz

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|2009-01-26|6:58 a.m.|

FIELD CAMP ENDED! HELL YEAH! :D 6 days, 5 nites. P.Tekong. Ninja COY. SBO. fire movements. CAMOU on. re-sups. artis (artillery drills), shell scrapes. digging. high kneel. <<7hours of uninterrupted sleep. 1/3 alerts. stand to. BIC. 6DAYS WITHOUT SHOWERING, TEETH BRUSHING, FACE WASHING. Hot Spring. Wet Feet. Dig Hard. Get High.

6 days passed really quickly when u look back after BIC (Battle Inoculation Course) though u cant really remember wad u did for the past few days. even when u feel so fucked up on every day of the camp. LoL.

it all started with a 8km route march in the early monday morning. ninja route march -> wad else? nearly killed me. for real. -_- basically nothing much in the first 3-4 days. just lessons on fire movements and sleepless nites in e basha, topped up with a nite confidence course. where my sergeant's light stick was so bright tt my eyes cant see a single shit in the dark, defeating the whole purpose of letting your eyes adjust to the darkness and learn to SEEEE at nite. saw fireflies though xD

day 4. tactically marched to the other campsite. had FUN digging our own graves and sleeping in them after that. roots and roots and rocks and rocks. pffft. but at least i had a decent shell scrape. :| lots and lots of proning action thx to the stand to sessions and 1/3 alert. interrupted countless times in my sleep. day 5. more digging action! D: Group battle course. basically an assessment to make sure we come back with something from the field camp. got fucked many times during it. but nvm. heck it. :) worst was me taking cover behind a tree where i fucking proned on an ants nest. got fucked by the ants and the spider web which i chionged thru sometime later. 'i think the enemy will die! they laugh at u guys oso laugh to death lar!' thx :O

day 6. BIC. last component of IFC. never imagined leopard crawling was so hard. but i passed by alot of treasures while doing my leopard and back crawl thru my lane. lol. watches and camou cream~ BIC, marked the end of IFC. when my PS said 'u guys see the tunnel over there? load up!' everyone was so happy and relieved to sprint to the tunnel lol. i actually nvr see them so enthu and focused b4. xD well. i guessed that was the best part of IFC :)

well. its back to the routine stuff again...and SOC's coming. hell no... :(

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|2009-01-25|4:19 a.m.|

yes yes...its all back to PT and route marches :( with a little bonus this week: GUARD DUTY! -_- i didnt expect to be chosen for guard duty so soon. but thinking positively...i'll definitely have the rest of my weekends off, including CNY and valentines! :D

duno why im so damn suay. i got a weekend 1, topped up with the worst location. Lol. 24hours @ ammo dump. at least my sergeants were nice. the ammo dump is in the middle of nowhere, so u dun expect to see many people during your 24hrs stay. 2hrs duty, 4hrs rest. wasnt tt bad in the first place...0900-1100, 1500-1700, 2100-2300 but the 0300-0500 was terrible. both leslie were struggling to keep awake and continue walking, rather equivalent to 2 zombies slowly walking down the road. anyway its just patrolling btwn 2 places. but at nite..the street lamps on the main road were not switched on for some reason. and so, for part of the patrol, it was just us 2 walking down the 2-lane road surrounded by forested area on both sides. it was just too fucking dark for us to see anything without torchlight. even with them, it still feels eerie -_- lots and lots of weird sounds coming from both sides of the road. honestly, i was really scared while doing the patrols =/ lol. but im glad i didnt see any 好朋友 on any of my shifts. phew. since it was so dark...the sky was littered with stars! :D it was really wonderful, wished u were there =X and leslie taught me how to identify the orion constellation. cool.

oh ya. we saw wild boars in the day. my first time! and monkeys too haha. the wild boars jumped out from the forest 1 by 1 and ran across the road b4 disappearing into the dense undergrowth at the other end. but it was cute la, the 1st boar was really black and big, the subsequent ones were lighter in color and significantly smaller. i think its a male leading his family haha. not really a thing u see everywhere...not at TFT or rocky hill! HAH! AMMO DUMP FTW! xD okay, time for monkeys. it was the e afternoon, 1 detail was outside doing the routine patrol, the rest napping in the office. apparently, some monkey came to visit. and toppled over the lunch boxes in the office and was busy munching on the spilled food, basically messed up the entire area when i saw it. poor sergeants had to clean up the mess :|

enough of guard duties. the entire week was packed with field camp lessons (camouflaging, distance judging etc.) and PT sessions, AGRs, STs, ISTs and 1 6km NINJA route march and HG (hand grenade) lessons. tiring. shag. but definitely productive. aiming for silver for e next IPPT CAT :) field camp tomorrow. GG. wish me luck...

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|2009-01-18|12:16 p.m.|

4 weeks passed since enlistment, finally its the other dudes turn to be stuck in tekong :) all of them kana confined and im out :D and its always very fucked up to know tt u have to book in so freaking soon. like book out on sat. book in on e next day. haix. sad life lar.

anyway. this week was the range week. spent monday at the simulator place, shooting using the wadeva programme. had my first glimpse and try out at using SAR 21 to shoot. awesome :) after 1 go at the simulator place, we went to the range on wednesday. pretty rush...but i guessed it went well for me :) we took a tunnel to tt place, and i tell u, the ride is a very bumpy one . 16 shots in the day, 16 shots at nite. 26 points to get marksman. and i think i scored 28/32. and of coze im a marksman :) well. the entire company had ~80 marksman on the first day at range, 1 with perfect score =O and i freaking spent my next 2 days at company line with the other ~80 pple, cleaning our rifles -.- while the others head out to range to BANG BANG, coze the company wanted to have as many marksman as possible...and in the end. only a handful didnt get it..~10? LoL. so u see...its a pretty slack week =/

next week. its surely back to route marches and drill squad trainings. :( no more time to slack le T_T

i dread NS. -_- and im so freaking broke after treating my family @ vivo yest. lol :)

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|2009-01-11|1:17 p.m.|

okay. people always ask about 好朋友 stuff when u go tekong for NS. well, i just read abit about them on the net, didnt dare to read too much, coze im still in bmtc -.- don't wanna scare the freak out of me. i still wan to slp at nite. luckily i've not seen anything yet...not like i wan to see anything lol. the scariest thing tt happened to me was during my 1st 2weeks confinement period. i fell sick in the middle of the 2weeks so i couldnt really slp that particular nite coze i had a rather bad flu. so...i sat up on the bed. guess wad. it didnt take more than 10seconds till i see a black figure stop by outside my bunk. u see...im sleeping at the 1st bed, nearest to the window and the corridor. freaking scary place to slp at -.- okay, getting on with the story. obviously i couldnt see what tt black thing was, coze 1. i dun wear specs when i slp 2. it was somewhere in the middle of the nite and lights are off. honestly, i think i really cua tio when i saw tt black thing. scared the shit out of me at the moment. imagine something stopping by outside the window when u just nice decided to sit on the bed. worse still, being bed 1 and just next to the window. -_-' BUT THEN. it was my sergeant lar. BLOODY HELL. i only know tt when he asked me why i haven sleep. ya, i recognised his voice -.- i think i really felt to RELIEVED that it wasnt u know wad. i think he was walking around the company, making sure that everyone in the platoon is asleep i guess. so 巧 hor. lol.

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|2009-01-03|3:52 p.m.|

想跟我吵架 我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉 我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的塬点
　　　　
你又在哭泣 我给不了安慰
我又在摇头 有那么点后悔
爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走
　　　　
但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪
　　　　
你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳　　　
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
　　　
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好

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|2009-01-03|1:41 a.m.|

5! 4! 3! 2! 1! 0! 0! marked the end of 08 and the start of 2009! hurray! had countdown at sinyee house. though i didnt really had the mood or felt the wadeva feeling u should have during countdowns. prob as always. prob due to NS? i don't know. i just feel very 'stone' and out of words. :( drank a bottle of blackcurrant vodka, 8% alcohol, and i think i got drunk then -.- prob partly coze i was so tired from waking up at 5am and doing the 4km route march in e morning. anyway, the light feeling is really nice. :) smth like u cant fully control your body and actions. like confessing to your crush on e spot. but of coze. i wasnt tt drunk la. haha :P

time flies. its already 3 weeks since enlistment and called tekong my home. met many new people. nice ones. not so nice ones. made frens. suck cock buddies. section buddies. platoon mates. naked asses. NINJA, impressive company. xiong trainings. nice sergeants. ya-ya-papayas. huh-huh-huh-lanpas. CPT1. CPT2. dumbbell drills. medicine ball drills. buddha claps. flutter kicks. amazing weapon presentation ceremony. wonderful star-littered sky. heart-warming sunrise. and i got into the company drill squad. kewl. now i got to train till i drop for the competition. haix. drill is just not meant for me...but! i'll try! :) tts wad NS is all about! u come out a MAN! :D so i'll endure all the shit for tt. yea. including the nitemare haircuts and 'shag u to the bones' route marches and the blisters. lol. and more importantly, everyone around me are almost going thru the same shit as me. :)

after 3 weeks. i've become more fit. probably. greater appetite. more vulgar. definitely. hot tempered. i guess. but time really pass quite quickly in camp, other than the times when u feel really terribly shag. esp. route marches. totally crazy sia. no time to really think about other stuff. but i really do miss life outside. prob her? hah. its pretty screwed -.-

*prays for a good year ahead!*

leave all the bad things behind and get on with life! yay! :D

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|2009-01-01|12:17 p.m.|

hohoho. 被电视彻底地 own 掉. and i tell u. the feeling sucks.

heaven's really with me today heheh. Even the the bloody LRT refuses to let me go home smoothly.

what a day. and im enlisting tml. woots. fuck it.

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|2008-12-10|11:53 p.m.|

just .a and im thinking tt this will be the last few chances i will have playing with them past midnite. ns ns ns ns lawl.

thx yinghao for planning today's dinner out at cafe cartel though he was 1hr late. haha. hmph, tt was my farewell dinner from the study group a.k.a lib gang. the thing is that yinghao and i both brought cameras, but we 4got to take pictures. -_- well, we'll prob meet again some time early next year :) or mayb christmas! shall see. but im really touched and thankful tt everyone came, even on such a short notice (yinghao only told them less than 24hrs b4) for it, and of coze yinghao for planning it in the first place. thx bro! :) well, my 1st time at cafe cartel, food was okay, not exactly fantastic...and oh ya! we finally got our bottles from the gals, after them rotting in peggy's house for like a year. lawl. mine even has a batman logo on it. lmao.

well, i think i always take things for granted and always fail to realise and remember the great frens around me. take the study group for example. i normally wont hang out with them, unless on study sessions at the libraries on sundays or days near papers (which i pon somtimes) but when we meet up like once in a while, i'll get this warm feeling from spending time with them. lol. i duno why, but it happens. and i was thinking about all these on my way home just now.

honestly, i really think tt i'll be nth without frens. im the only child in the family, meaning that i really depend on frens alot, regardless of entertainment, company and studies. And. im really thankful for the group of frens around me who are always there for me! :) chongchen, whos always there when i need someone to talk to. yinghao and junbo, for being really great buddies tt bring joy and laughter, and motivating me to study, train and stuff. huanzi, a great 'elder brother' who looks after all of us. my gaming buddies, basil, nic phang, jiawei, joshua, yanzhi, junxian, kiantat who always saves me when im bored at home, talking cock with me all the way :) not forgetting eric too, whom we had countless 'food outings' with others in the 2 years. the study group, for all the sessions tt made me not flung college tt badly. haha. the npcc shuai-ges, yongwei, zhiyong, honghui and of coze many others, for their wonderful company thru the 6 years! tippers! for the wonderful memories that we share <3 and the happiness brought into my life. its bound to be one of the best times im gonna remb. lastly, classmates, who've completed the long and treacherous journey with me thus far, even though we may not know each other very well. and of coze many others around.

i <3 u guys :)

well. tts about it for today. gotta slp :)

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|2008-12-08|2:51 a.m.|

prom. it wasnt really fantastic for me. felt tt i wasnt in the mood for it. lol. ritz, imba ugly from the outside, but fantastic inside. the rooms even have the view of marina bay from your very own spacious bathtub. splendid. midnite LAN-ed for the first time of my life, wasnt fantastic too -_-' we only ended up playing for 1.5hrs. lawl. b4 heading back to some ulu hotel in orchard where we rotted for 2hrs? talking cock, watching amazing race, channelnewsasia. everyone were just too tired for anything. blood-shot eyes across the room :D well, i didnt really take tt many photos too...wad a waste. :( [if u've comments on tt, just. fuck. off.]

[graduated] :)

oh yea. i think i found the answer :O

well. good morning and good night :)

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|2008-12-06|8:11 a.m.|

its been quite some time since we met them. they seemed to be prettier now. haha. had dinner at Fish&Co., didnt dare to eat too much =/ but i guess...the soup was rather nice :D went to the usual place to K after tt, but i think it wasnt really successful? everyone was pretty restless eh. don't know wad happened. lawl, elaine kept looking back and laugh at me! made me not dare to sing -_-' bah! im gonna miss them! :( lolx. well, hope we'll still continue to meet up often in the future. :) cheers to vj and hc! xD

just finished a can of heineken. time to slp. [ps: beer sucks. but why is it still so popular?]

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|2008-12-05|2:21 a.m.|

i don't know how to describe how im feeling now. alittle lonely, a little bored, a little lost, a little rush, a little desperate and a little of alot more.. -_-

watched several movies since a levels ended. Quantum of Solace on the day of the last paper with part of the class. Band Camp, The Departed (hollywood version of 无间道) and Epic movie all with junbo and eric. The Girl Next Door, to pass time at home. And finally TWILIGHT during the JB trip yesterday. :) The last being particularly sweet and touching xD should've watched with a date. LoL. as if i've got 1... Hmmm, i always have this feeling of being a little down after i watch a movie/series tt i like very much...wadeva. and now, im left with the last 1 that i want to watch. 海角七号!

and considering how bored i am now at home. i went to type all these out, from 1 of the movies.

'Moral fiber. So wad is moral fiber? I used to think that it is about telling the truth, doing good deeds, basically being a fucking boy scout. but lately i've been seeing it differently. Now i think moral fiber is about finding that one thing u really care about. That one special thing that means more to u than anything else in the world. And when you find her, u fight for her, u risk it all. u put her infront of everything, your future, your life, all of it. and maybe this stuff u do to help her isnt so clean. u know wad? it doesnt matter. coze in your heart u know, the juice is worth the squeeze. thats wad moral fiber is all about.'

bah. i just <3 twilight soooo much :) and just for the info, the paragraph and song above is NOT from twilight.

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|2008-12-02|6:15 p.m.|

at home for the entire day. :(

i wanna watch 海角七号! will i?

thinking of u at
|2008-11-27|8:05 p.m.|

15th day b4 enlistment. fantastic. shopped for prom clothes at orchard, still gotta continue soon. freaking troublesome. all these days out is killing me! im sosososoososososo broke. :(

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|2008-11-25|8:10 p.m.|

everyone has their problems, and im not any better.

its my day.

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|2008-11-24|11:51 p.m.|